Aren't you guys shocked? It's not even been a week and I'm posting again.
Does anyone else feel guilty when they hear about how much a friend's life sucks. Really sucks not just minor drama. I have this friend who's mom is sick with Alzheimer's, she lost her job, her car is broken, and she's about to be evicted. Partially guilty because I can't help her much, but also partially guilty because my life is going so well, and we're so (relatively) affluent. Morgan has a good job, we're not worried about being evicted, we're not worried about where our next meal is going to come from.. we're worried about whether we can spend $2,000 on a photographer or whether we should really go with the $1,000 photographer... And she'll say stuff like "so what have you been up to today" and then I feel horrible because the answer is "trying to decide how to best throw an $8,000 party..." when I know that my question of "what have you been up to today" will get an answer of "well, my phone has been turned off for failure to pay." As if I feel guilty for being 'rich' which is completely stupid because there were lots of years where we were poor too, and besides on a more fundamental level, why should I feel guilty for our success? It's that kind of thinking that gets rich people to vote Democrat, which is stupid, and I know it, but I still feel guilty. Maybe it's more that I personally feel I'm not good enough, so I have no right to succeed, so I should feel guilty for having succeeded. As in, the same crap I've been battling ever since I was born into an alcoholic family. Which sucks, 'cause I thought I was past that. I thought that my self esteem was better than that, finally. But here I am with the same knee-jerk reaction of inferiority. *sigh* Back to the therapist, I guess.
Not much happened this week, really. I finished reorganizing my dad's websites (the two sites are www.4wdrc.com and www.2wdrc.com and maintaining them for the company is my job). He's had 7 webmasters in 5 years, which explains some of the organization problems, but really, he had files named 100_203682b. A bunch of them. As in, people never bothered to rename the image files. So now, a news article is called 01-01-2008 (or whatever day it was written on) and the image files for that news article are called 01-01-2008_01 or 01-01-2008_02. And all the news articles are in a folder, and all the news images are in a folder inside the images folder called... yep, that's right "NewsImages" Same with the tech articles or the race results. I mean, seriously peoples, it doesn't take that long to organize *one* story as you're writing the code. You have to move the images to a folder on your hard drive, why not make it a logical folder? Then, future webmasters won't be beating their heads against the wall wondering what file "1" is. (and yes, there was a file called nothing but "1"). We also had files that are not linked to anywhere on our sites, but they're still be hosted. Like biographies of drivers who no longer drive for us. Their bio, and all the pictures, are still up there. Why? You can't get to that page from anywhere else on the site. ARRRRGGHHH! But, it's all cleaned up now, and logically organized, which should make it an easier site to maintain.
I think my favorite time of day is right now, early morning when I'm awake and dressed but the rest of the house (or just Morgan in this case) is still asleep. I feel like I can do anything - it's so peaceful. Some mornings I just curl up with a cup of coffee and read and soak in the silence, other mornings I'm super productive and clean the entire apartment (well, minus the bedroom) before 9 am. Which is weird, because it's just as quiet in the weekday mornings after he leaves for work, but somehow it's not the same. Oh well, more on this later. Runescape is calling my name.